Slipknot rocker
M. Shawn 'Clown' Crahan desperately wants to leave the band to spend more time with his family.
The percussionist admits he has become disillusioned with life on the road with the heavy rock group and hopes he will be able to quit or take an extended hiatus.
Crahan's wife Chantal was diagnosed with bowel condition Crohn's disease in 2001, and the star insists he would love to be at home with her and their four children.
He says, "I'm in a really weird place in my life right now. I'm at a point where I wouldn't say I'm having a mid-life crisis but... I'd love to be doing anything other than Slipknot right now.
"I've never wanted to be around my family as much as I want to be around them now. My wife is in the best health she's been in for a long while and I'm enjoying watching my kids grow up.
"I guess I don't know who I am any more and that's pretty scary."